Boo Hoo

This is Jon and I thinking about having to return to reality tomorrow. Sniff. Sniff.

If we didn't miss our girls like crazy you might never see us again. :)

A little of what I did today...

Dos Ojos






Akumal Bay

Mexico Here I Come

Off to Mexico...or shall I say, the airport....in two hours. It will be worth it. It will be worth it. It will be worth it. :)

Blogging in my Head Again....

It's late. I'm tired. So tired I lay my head down on the table. Suddenly flashes of highschool and college come to mind. I spent much of that time sleeping on my desk. Then I start blogging...in my head...I guess that's what I do at night. But hey, I'm right by my computer. I suppose I can rouse myself enough to type it out this time.

I think the challenge about blogging is the idea that I have to portray my life as pretty perfect, almost always. And let's face it, it's not. I try to be a "glass half full" kind of gal, and I don't really want to be a Debbie Downer, but I might just include a little bit of the downs along with the ups.

I guess I can do that tonight since I am heading to Mexico in a day. I can't last down here long right?

This week the biggest challenge has been getting over myself. Yes. I do stupid things. Like saying dumb things whilst in front of large groups of people. Instead of letting in roll off my back, as I'm sure they haven't thought twice about it, I obsess. I kick myself over and over, when it really wasn't a big deal. Yet I can't let it go.

The other challenge has been the new "tude" my six-year-old is copping. My pretty much perfect, smart, happy, kind, helpful little girl has a dark side. I see it so rarely I don't really know how to cope. Again, back to kicking myself...over and over. Suddenly the next phase is here. I'm wondering if this is how it will be. A teenager for the next 14 year. AHHHH! I suppose I have some serious payback coming my way after what I put my mom through. What goes around comes around.

ACCEPT

I came across the blog/website: http://aliedwards.com/2010/12/one-little-word-2011.html#more-8036

I was a little inspired. It's funny how once you learn about something you start to see it everywhere. That's the case with "One Little Word". I love the idea of choosing something, one way to change myself for the new year. I still want to keep and break all of my other resolutions, but to focus on one word....I might be able to do that.

So the word I've chosen is ACCEPT.

I want to ACCEPT God's plan for me, even if it might not be my plan.

I want to ACCEPT the things that I can not change.

I want to ACCEPT myself for who I am.

I want to ACCEPT others for who they are.

I want to ACCEPT the differences in my children and embrace them.

This will be an interesting journey...

1.1.11

What? Me? Blogging?

Just so you know, I do blog. All of the time! I just do it in my head, at night, before I drift off to sleep. I guess I just need a little more motivation to get what's in my head out there somewhere, for my future self to read. And maybe my kids. I'm pretty sure that's all that reads this stuff. That's ok though.

I am sure this is the beginning of a failing New Year's resolution. But that is one thing that I am really good at. Starting things I don't finish. I am cursed with the 85% completion syndrome! I am really good at writing notes I don't send, wrapping presents I don't give, making treats for others that sit on my counter. I have a million projects started that I know I'll finish someday....I'm just not sure when that "someday" will be. But I've accepted who and how I am. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to change. So what I have learned is that I just need to get as much accomplished as I can while I have the steam. Unfortunately I know that at some point it will run out.

But today is a new day. A new beginning. I guess I need to take advantage of it.

There is just something about the holiday that makes me sentimental. I suppose that some of it does come along with the new year. With the new year brings reflections of the past year (and years.) For the moment I am overwhelmed with the sense that time is fleeting. I look at my babies, who are 4 and 6, and wonder where time went. I suppose that it's moments like these that I feel the need to record some of what as occurred here in my life.

I think I'll write down some of what I want to accomplish, but just know I'll probably only do 85% of it.....

1. De-Crap my house.
2. Vacation...as much as possible.
3. Stay in a budget...while still accomplishing goal #2.
4. Be better at family night, scripture study, etc.
5. Record my experiences via blogging, journals, photos
6. Last but not least...exercise, eat better and become really skinny (Hey! It could happen!)

One thing I have learned about goals this past year is how overwhelming it can be to be faced with a whole goal all at once. By breaking that goal down into little mini-goals it seems actually feasible. It has worked. 85% of the time. JK. Anyways. I might try it. I'll let you know how it goes.

Here's to the new year. :)